Random thoughts:
So I am really sorry that I haven’t updated my blog in so long! The past few weeks have been a bit crazy… Life is a funny thing…
So I think that it is so ridiculous how we can forget certain things… I mean we can know things but sometimes we just seem to forget them… For example the months after graduating college especially after the summer ended and I still didn’t have a job. I began the process for teaching in Korea. I was terrified to go! I was so scared that I was going to have to go alone and for months the Lord had to work on my heart and He had to teach me to trust Him. And for those of you who know me well, trusting is NOT something that comes easy for me. It is a constant struggle. So for months He worked on my heart and mind and reminded me that He is sovereign, He is faithful, He is mighty, and He is love… And He would bring to my attention the times, after times, after times that he was faithful and He would say, “Don’t you remember Aimee? I am faithful. Trust me. Lean on me. Your heart is in my hands. Trust me.” So finally I said, “Ok Lord, I will go but it is not going to be easy, but I will trust you.” A month and a half after that I found out that Elena was going for sure with me to Korea. What a blessing! And I was able to see His sovereignty yet again! Know that Elena and I were supposed to be in different parts of Korea. I was just really relieved to have a friend in the same country. And I praised God for His faithfulness, then we get the phone call that said if we leave in December we could teach and the same school and be neighbors! How faithful is that?!? So throughout the whole process over and over again I had to trust Him and lean on Him because I had no job and no money, and every time I applied for a job I didn’t get it, which was disheartening but it caused me to trust Him more. It also allowed me to build firmer relationships with my family and friends. He was so faithful over and over again. Now all that is the back-story to my thoughts …
All that to say that I have been struggling with a certain area of my life and I have been having a hard time with it because it’s something that is on my heart and mind and I was moping around a bit about it. I ended up talking to a wise women via facebook chat and the words that she spoke went straight to my heart. It made me cry because her words pierced me the way only God can… At the end of our conversation she began to pray for me… I have never been prayed for over facebook before but her prayer moved me. To know that even though we are worlds apart she took the time to bring my needs and worries before a Father who cares.
The next day I was still struggling but feeling a bit better about the situation and later that night I had an excellent conversation with one of the Korean teachers. She asked me how it was that I came to Korea so I told her the story and all the while I was telling her I was thinking, “Lord you are so faithful! Always! Why is it that I so quickly forget? I know that you are sovereign. I know that you are faithful but why is it that I forget it? Why am I worrying or fretting over something that I know you are going to be faithful in?” The Korean teacher and I had an excellent conversation and it ended up that she was struggling with the same thing that I was. It was great that we were able to encourage each other.
Both of those conversations really helped me to remember and see all over again that God is big God! And He is faithful. So again I have to trust in Him and His plan for my life. But I would really like to say thank you for all your prayers and words of encouragement over the last few weeks and months! I appreciate them all! Love you all lots!!!
random thoughts
February 26, 2009 by aimeemcd
That’s not so random.. almost dejavu
Amen…can’t wait to see where this trip takes you next. Kind of encourages me. I’ve just started a course in Japanese and wow has God really been there in every step of it.
Oh, wanted you to know. Just got back tonight from the healing room. Had a great word tonight as I went in for prayer afterwards for the CT scan I have coming up. God gave the vision that I was right on the path he had for me and not to worry, to let God lead the way down it. All with a picture of a boat journeying towards the rising sun. Just what I had been praying about again in regards to going to Japan, as I just started my class in Japanese.
It is like clear as day now. Really makes me wonder what i’ll be doing there, but I can see him working already in this class to help me get prepared. Already making headway in the hiragana which I had been worried about. Like the Holy Spirit is helping me learn it.
Look forward to more of your posts. Oh Terry says hi and she said she adores the pictures of your students.